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Kerry Katona admits she binged on cocaine and hoped she ‘wouldn’t wake up’ as she battled suicidal thoughts during …

Kerry Katona admits she binged on cocaine and hoped she ‘wouldn’t wake up’ as she battled suicidal thoughts during …

Kerry Katona has revealed she felt suicidal during her marriage to second husband Mark Croft as the battled a cocaine addiction.   The 37-year-old said that when she found out her husband at the time, who she was married to from 2007-2011, was cheating on her and a clip emerged of her snorting drugs she felt like she wanted to die. She admitted to The Sun that everything going on around her made her feel alone and worthless, and was made worse by the fact that people were questioning her abilities as a mother.

Low point: Kerry Katona revealed that during her lowest points she would ‘froth at the mouth’ while binging on cocaine in a bid to end her own life The TV personality confessed that at her lowest points, after suffering fits and blacking out, she hoped that she would never wake up again. She said: ‘I took so much coke with Mark and I had hoped he’d try to stop me, and go, “I love you too much to see you do this”, but he never did,’ the star admitted.  The reality of the situation was very different, as Kerry said that she felt suicidal while she was married to Mark.

Struggles: The 37-year-old said that when she found out her husband at the time Mark Croft was cheating on her and a clip emerged of her snorting drugs she felt like she wanted to die, she told the Sun ‘I would take so much that I’d have a fit and start frothing at the mouth and I really hoped I wouldn’t wake up. But I always did. I had a guardian angel, thank God!’  Opening up on World Suicide Prevention Day, the mum-of-five, said: ‘I felt really suicidal…I was snorting cocaine like it was going out of fashion. I felt so isolated. I didn’t want to be here anymore. I almost gave in.’ Prior to Kerry’s attempt at taking her own life, at age three she watched her mum slit her wrists in front of her. Even when Kerry’s mum Sue was pregnant with her, she tried to slit her throat, and made several other attempts on her life until Kerry was 17. Kerry said of the attempts, that she had her daughters names tattooed on her wrists to stop her following the same path. She is speaking out in support of the You’re Not Alone campaign, the newspaper’s campaign in support of World Suicide Prevention Day. Feeling ‘worthless’: She admitted that everything going on around her made her feel alone and worthless, made worse by the fact that people were questioning her abilities as a mother During Kerry’s troubled life has been put into care, after her mum’s boyfriend stabbed her and told the kids he wanted to chop them up. She recalled even having to pull a knife out of her leg, before being sent into care because her mum chose him over them.  Her partner later died after being run over, and after his death Sue wanted to kill herself, and Kerry admitted that she tried to help. She remembers telling her mum to take them all because she’d had enough of not feeling good enough for her.

Support: She said her kids, Molly, 15, Lily-Sue, 14, Heidi, ten, Max, nine and Dylan-Jorge, three, are more aware of mental health issues than many kids, and are aware their mum suffers tough mood dips Her turning point came when she took part in a boot camp, during her marriage to Mark, where she ran, ate healthily and came off her bipolar medication and has never touched cocaine since.   She said her kids, Molly, 15, Lily-Sue, 14, Heidi, ten, Max, nine and Dylan-Jorge, three, are more aware of mental health issues than many kids, and are aware their mum suffers tough mood dips.   Kerry is urging anyone feeling low or suicidal to see her as an example.

For confidential support call the Samaritans on 116123 or visit a local Samaritans branch, see www.samaritans.org for details. Avoiding the same path: Kerry said of the attempts, that she had her daughters names tattooed on her wrists to stop her following the same path

 

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Emma Jones is an entertainment journalist for UKCelebrityNews and other magazines. The author or coauthor of ten books, Emma has sold several million copies since 2006. She worked for eleven years as a writer and editor at the national news biweekly WORLD magazine.

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