Kerry Katona admits she binged on cocaine and hoped she ‘wouldn’t wake up’ as she battled suicidal thoughts during …

Kerry Katona admits she binged on cocaine and hoped she ‘wouldn’t wake up’ as she battled suicidal thoughts during …

Kerry Katona has revealed she felt suicidal during her marriage to second husband Mark Croft as the battled a cocaine addiction.   The 37-year-old said that when she found out her husband at the time, who she was married to from 2007-2011, was cheating on her and a clip emerged of her snorting drugs she felt like she wanted to die. She admitted to The Sun that everything going on around her made her feel alone and worthless, and was made worse by the fact that people were questioning her abilities as a mother.

Low point: Kerry Katona revealed that during her lowest points she would ‘froth at the mouth’ while binging on cocaine in a bid to end her own life The TV personality confessed that at her lowest points, after suffering fits and blacking out, she hoped that she would never wake up again. She said: ‘I took so much coke with Mark and I had hoped he’d try to stop me, and go, “I love you too much to see you do this”, but he never did,’ the star admitted.  The reality of the situation was very different, as Kerry said that she felt suicidal while she was married to Mark.

Struggles: The 37-year-old said that when she found out her husband at the time Mark Croft was cheating on her and a clip emerged of her snorting drugs she felt like she wanted to die, she told the Sun ‘I would take so much that I’d have a fit and start frothing at the mouth and I really hoped I wouldn’t wake up. But I always did. I had a guardian angel, thank God!’  Opening up on World Suicide Prevention Day, the mum-of-five, said: ‘I felt really suicidal…I was snorting cocaine like it was going out of fashion. I felt so isolated. I didn’t want to be here anymore. I almost gave in.’ Prior to Kerry’s attempt at taking her own life, at age three she watched her mum slit her wrists in front of her. Even when Kerry’s mum Sue was pregnant with her, she tried to slit her throat, and made several other attempts on her life until Kerry was 17. Kerry said of the attempts, that she had her daughters names tattooed on her wrists to stop her following the same path. She is speaking out in support of the You’re Not Alone campaign, the newspaper’s campaign in support of World Suicide Prevention Day. Feeling ‘worthless’: She admitted that everything going on around her made her feel alone and worthless, made worse by the fact that people were questioning her abilities as a mother During Kerry’s troubled life has been put into care, after her mum’s boyfriend stabbed her and told the kids he wanted to chop them up. She recalled even having to pull a knife out of her leg, before being sent into care because her mum chose him over them.  Her partner later died after being run over, and after his death Sue wanted to kill herself, and Kerry admitted that she tried to help. She remembers telling her mum to take them all because she’d had enough of not feeling good enough for her.

Support: She said her kids, Molly, 15, Lily-Sue, 14, Heidi, ten, Max, nine and Dylan-Jorge, three, are more aware of mental health issues than many kids, and are aware their mum suffers tough mood dips Her turning point came when she took part in a boot camp, during her marriage to Mark, where she ran, ate healthily and came off her bipolar medication and has never touched cocaine since.   She said her kids, Molly, 15, Lily-Sue, 14, Heidi, ten, Max, nine and Dylan-Jorge, three, are more aware of mental health issues than many kids, and are aware their mum suffers tough mood dips.   Kerry is urging anyone feeling low or suicidal to see her as an example.

For confidential support call the Samaritans on 116123 or visit a local Samaritans branch, see www.samaritans.org for details. Avoiding the same path: Kerry said of the attempts, that she had her daughters names tattooed on her wrists to stop her following the same path

 

Ryan Thomas mystifies the nation by shaving his toes in preparation for the Celebrity Big Brother final

The Celebrity Big Brother house has been anything but a quiet place for most of its final series. But during a quieter moment in the house this year’s fan-favourite contestant, Ryan Thomas managed to find a moment to indulge in some ‘me time’ on last night’s episode. Sitting down in the bathroom he indulged in a little bit of grooming and shaved his toes. Yes, he shaved his toes – and no one really knew what to think. Ryan Thomas CBB has been shaving his toes, and the nation is divided (Picture: Channel 5)Ryan, having managed to win the nation’s heart with his genuine manner while dealing with ‘punch gate’, was seen enjoying a moment away from the rest of his housemates. And rather than focus on the rest of the celebs having a rather serious conversation, the cameras chose to show Ryan showing his toes some love.

Obviously, people at home couldn’t help but clock the toe shaving, and it prompted a number of reactions.

Others weren’t too amused by the sight of the former Corrie star paying particular attention to his feet. In fact, there were some very strong feelings against the whole scene…

Needless to say the nation was er… divided over Ryan’s toes. However, he still remains one of the favourites to win the show alongside Kirstie Alley and Dan Oscborne.

 

Ariana Grande Opens Up About Feeling Really ‘Anxious’ On First UK Visit Since One Love Manchester

Ariana Grande Opens Up About Feeling Really ‘Anxious’ On First UK Visit Since One Love Manchester

Ariana Grande has opened up about feeling “really, really anxious” during her first trip to the UK since the One Love Manchester Concert last year. The ‘Sweetener’ singer recently travelled to the UK to perform in London for Captial FM’s Up Close series, but she admitted the trip was a “huge test” for her.

A fan tweeted questioning why we haven’t seen many candid pics of her, and she replied: “sry i’m really really anxious and really exhausted and jus trying to get thru the trip. hope that’s ok. hope you enjoy the performances. my priority is giving u the best performances i’m capable of. i don’t really care ab having my picture taken. love u [sic].”

Another fan reached out to say they hope she enjoys the rest of her time in the UK, and she replied: “i’m like really trying. it’s jus been a while since i’ve done this or been this far away from home. this was a huge test. so far not so great hehe. but i’ve loved singing for u and seeing ur faces. that part has been nice. thanks for understanding n for loving me [sic].” sry i’m really really anxious and really exhausted and jus trying to get thru the trip. hope that’s ok. hope you enjoy the performances. my priority is giving u the best performances i’m capable of. i don’t really care ab having my picture taken. love u.— Ariana Grande

i’m like really trying. it’s jus been a while since i’ve done this or been this far away from home. this was a huge test. so far not so great hehe. but i’ve loved singing for u and seeing ur faces. that part has been nice. thanks for understanding n for loving me.— Ariana Grande

Her first trip to the country since the benefit concert, which she held following the Manchester Terror attack at her concert in May 2017 that left 22 people dead, was never going to be easy. But it looks like her final night in London was a special one. o woah london that was so special. i love u more than words can express. thank u for everything i’m so grateful and also fully sleeping. u are everything. sweet dreams.— Ariana Grande

Following her performance for ‘Ariana Grande At The BBC’ on Thursday night, she tweeted: “o woah london that was so special. i love u more than words can express. thank u for everything i’m so grateful and also fully sleeping. u are everything. sweet dreams [sic].” She later took to Instagram to wish the city goodbye with an epic wig throw, and a simple: “Bye London.”

 

Charles honoured at GQ Men Of The Year Awards

Charles honoured at GQ Men Of The Year Awards

The Prince of Wales joked that he now had something to “throw at the burglar” as he was presented with a Lifetime Achievement Award by GQ.

The royal was honoured for his charity work at the GQ Men Of The Year Awards. The choir sang Starman as he took to the stage. Charles, who turns 70 this year, told the audience he initially thought it was a mistake when he heard he was getting the accolade.

 

Justin Bieber And Hailey Baldwin Are Reportedly Moving To Canada For This Reason

Justin Bieber And Hailey Baldwin Are Reportedly Moving To Canada For This Reason

It looks like Justin Bieber is officially done with the United States after it’s been reported that he and Hailey Baldwin are moving to Canada in an effort to live out their lives in relative peace. The singer has clearly had his ups and downs in Los Angeles over the years and is keen to start afresh in the location where he feels most at home: “He wants to make his full-time home in Canada,” a source told Us Weekly. “He needs to get out of the L.A., NYC scene.”

A significant reason behind the move is the fact that the paparazzi just won’t leave him and his fiancée alone, with an insider explaining that he finds the attention “overwhelming” and doesn’t want to put up with it for longer than necessary.  The pair are said to have purchased a $5 million mansion in Ontario and it sounds just as extravagant as we’d imagined. Along with a temperature controlled wine room, the property also boasts an equestrian facility and even a private lake. Casual. Getty This comes amid reports that the couple are planning to get hitched “really soon.” They’ve apparently hit a minor glitch with a wedding venue being unavailable on their chosen date but have since managed to find something more suitable. As for why it might take them a little longer than first anticipated to get everything in order, a separate insider said: “They want to make sure their day is perfect and exactly what they want.” Well, money talks.

 

Alfie Moon makes shock EastEnders return for explosive reunion with Kat and a baby bombshell

Alfie Moon makes shock EastEnders return for explosive reunion with Kat and a baby bombshell

The exciting news that EastEnders fans have been dreaming of has been confirmed – Alfie Moon is heading back to Walford.

The lovable rogue will return to Albert Square for an explosive reunion with his estranged wife Kat Slater. The couple have not been speaking after an incident in Spain, but that’s all about to change when Alfie returns to his spiritual home. Actor Shane Richie has been back filming on set with Jessie Wallace and is due to appear back on screen later this autumn. His character is going to be in for a shock when Hayley Slater reveals her baby bombshell.

Shane Richie and Jessie Wallace have been back on set filming. The last time we saw Alfie he secretly arranged to meet Hayley in a hotel room. He was stunned when Hayley revealed she was pregnant after he cheated on Kat. Realising Alfie wanted to win Kat back, Hayley told him that she planned to terminate the baby.

Alfie slept with Hayley in Spain. He doesn’t know she kept the baby. So it will come as a massive surprise when he finds out she is ready to burst and all the Slater clan know about the pregnancy. Alfie is unaware that his lies are about to catch up with him when he gets in touch with Kat out of the blue. He enlists her help with a favour but is secretly planning to surprise his wife by appearing in London. Alfie is planning to win back Kat

How will Alfie react? Alfie is prepared to do anything to get Kat back by his side. How will he react when he finds out the truth about Hayley’s baby? *EastEnders airs tonight on BBC One at 7.30pm

 

Ant McPartlin meets Dec and Ali’s first baby – Isla

Ant McPartlin meets baby Isla

A thrilled Ant McPartlin has ‘already visited’ close friend and presenting partner Declan Donnelly following the birth of Declan’s first child with wife Ali Astall on Saturday morning.

The troubled star, in the midst of an extended hiatus from TV following his latest stint in rehab, is said to be ‘obsessed’ with the couple’s newborn daughter, Isla Elizabeth Anne. Isla’s arrival brought some cheer to troubled McPartlin, who wrote on social media: ‘Welcome to the world, baby Isla Elizabeth Anne. Can’t wait for cuddles. I love you already! Uncle Ant xxxxx’.

Ant McPartlin visited Declan Donnelly and wife Ali Astall at the London hospital as they welcome their baby girl Ant McPartlin visited the London hospital today after tweeting congratulations to his presenting partner from ‘Uncle Ant’ Donnelly, 42, originally broke the news by posted a picture of the baby’s hand delicately wrapped around his finger on his and sidekick McPartlin’s Instagram account. He wrote: ‘Ali and I are thrilled to announce the arrival of our baby girl, Isla Elizabeth Anne, who was born just after 9 o’clock this morning. Mother and daughter both doing well, Dad is head over heels! D x’  A source told The Sun: ‘Ant couldn’t wait to see Dec and Ali – and baby Isla of course. It’s a dream come true for them all and everyone is completely besotted.’

Donnelly, 42, posted a picture of the baby’s hand delicately wrapped around his finger on his and sidekick Ant McPartlin’s Instagram account Miss Astall, who is her husband’s manager, and baby Isla are expected to join the star for part of his time in Australia Isla’s arrival brought some cheer to troubled McPartlin, who wrote on social media Isla’s birth comes weeks before Donnelly heads to Australia to host the jungle reality series with new co-star Holly Willoughby, who is covering for McPartlin as he takes an extended break from work to address his alcohol issues.  Miss Astall, who is her husband’s manager, and baby Isla are expected to join the star for part of his time in Australia. A friend of the couple told The Mail on Sunday: ‘They are over the moon at Isla’s arrival. Nothing is confirmed yet but it’s very likely that Ali and the baby will head off to Australia. It will be a long time for Dec to be without his beloved baby otherwise.’

Meanwhile, James Bond star Daniel Craig and wife Rachel Weisz were last night celebrating the arrival of a ‘happy and bonny’ baby girl. Craig, 50, and Miss Weisz, 48, both have children with previous partners but are said to have longed for a baby together.

 

Coleen Nolan says she’s received online abuse following epic Kim Woodburn row on Loose Women

Coleen Nolan says she’s received online abuse following epic Kim Woodburn row on Loose Women

Coleen Nolan has opened up about her fallout on Loose Women with Kim Woodburn, saying she warned against her nemesis appearing on the show. The former Celebrity Big Brother housemates came face-to-face on the ITV chat show in an item asking if they could end their feud after the two women fell out last year. But it quickly escalated with former How Clean Is Your House? star Kim calling panellist Coleen “lying trash” before storming off the set.

Coleen Nolan – Celebrity Big Brother Housemate

TV watchdog Ofcom received more than 3,000 complaints, with some viewers saying they were offended by Kim’s treatment on the show and claiming the reality star guest was “bullied” and “ganged up” on. In an exclusive interview Coleen, who says she’s been upset to receive online abuse since the row last week, says she warned against Kim appearing on the afternoon chat show. “Personally I don’t have any say on who comes on,” she told us. Kim Woodburn walks off Loose Women after being reunited with CBB housemate Coleen Nolan

“I said ‘I don’t think she can do this’ but her management and the producers insisted she was fine. “I wasn’t shocked by what happened. But it really upset me that people are blaming me. I’m so not confrontational. “We’re all aware it looked like four against but she went off on one.” A tearful Kim, speaking about her experience in the Big Brother house, said pointing at Coleen: “They picked on me. This one ‘cup of tea Kim?’ and behind my back they were slagging me off.” Coleen Nolan won CBB in 2017

Asked why she didn’t leave CBB if she was unhappy she said: “I wanted the money.” Coleen, from Wilmslow, reminded Kim it has been 18 months since they had been on CBB together and Janet Street-Porter, who took on a judge role between the pair, said “she wants to draw a line under it.” But Kim argued: “I’ll never forget what the likes of her and seven others put me through.” And as fellow panellist Linda Robson put a comforting arm around her, Kim snapped “don’t be two-faced.” Coleen said: “She was there for an hour afterwards and they offered her every kind of help. “All of us were in shock afterwards and the audience was in shock. Coleen Nolan

“I wasn’t in as much shock because I had to live with it. “I was told her people had been in touch and the appearance was to make amends and I said ‘I don’t see any point in that.’” Afterwards Coleen’s official Twitter account told her followers: “For clarity – Coleen did not ask for Kim Woodburn to come on the show nor ask to be reunited with her – @loosewomen organised the show. “Coleen has no say in their choice of guests – Coleen stayed as calm as possible whilst being insulted live on air which was incredibly unpleasant.” A spokeswoman for Loose Women said afterwards: “Kim agreed to come onto the panel today at the invitation of the producers on the understanding it was for a reconciliation with Coleen. The Nolans in concert in 2009 “Kim becoming upset was never the intention and the panel did endeavour to comfort her. She was offered counselling after the show, which she declined.” Speaking about the reaction she’s received since the show the CBB 2017 winner said: “I’ve had a lot of abuse and I’m upset by that. Don’t start calling me a bully.” The Nolans singer is now “excited and nervous” to go solo for the first time and is embarking on a seven week concert tour which will bring her to the Manchester Apollo on Friday January 11 and Warrington Parr Hall on Friday February 15 and ending in her home town Blackpool at the Winter Gardens on Thursday February 28. She said: “I’ve always performed with a network of sisters so it’s quite scary. “The reason I wanted to call it Never Too Late is because I think there’s a lot of ageism against women and I don’t want fear to hold me back. Read More “I’m really looking forward to it. The public have put me where I am and it would be nice to be with them on a night out.”

Holly Willoughby reveals she’s taking her kids out of school for I’m A Celebrity

Holly Willoughby reveals she’s taking her kids out of school for I’m A Celebrity

HOLLY Willoughby has revealed she is taking her kids out of school so they can be with her in Australia as she films I’m a Celebrity… Get Me Out of Here!

The 37-year-old This Morning presenter is set to replace Ant McPartlin later this year when the popular series returns. Holly Willoughby is taking her kids out of school to film I’m a CelebrityShe will stand alongside long-term pal Declan Donnelly while Ant continues his recovery from drug addiction. Speaking for the first time about her new job, Holly said she has spent the summer organising the “logistics” of her move Down Under. She told co-host Phillip Schofield: “When I first found out, it’s obviously bittersweet, but it was exciting. “You try and work out when you’ll go and how long for. “The kids are coming with me so I’ve been speaking with the school seeing how that’s all going to work. Holly Willoughby is joining Declan Donnelly to host I’m A Celeb as Ant McPartlin takes a year out of TV Holly revealed her fears of looking in people’s mouths during the eating challenges”Dan’s coming with me, then all of a sudden that’s it, logistics are all sorted and you go oh, there’s going to be spiders and stuff.” She also revealed that new dad Dec will also be bringing his new baby girl Isla with him.

The telly star said: “I can’t wait for snuggles with her. And I think she’s going to be coming to Australia as well which is very exciting!” Holly then revealed to fans the three things she’s not looking forward to about her new presenting role. Phil mocked Holly over her fears of the jungle

She said: “One is the eating challenge. Even if you just ate chocolate and opened your mouth to show me right now I wouldn’t like it. “The fact you’ve eaten a body part that you’re not meant to, it’s going to be horrible. Holly Willoughby and Phillip Schofield congratulate Dec and his wife Ali on the birth of baby Isla Elizabeth Anne “I’m also not going to like the smells. I’m not good with smells. ”

 

Britney Spears’s on-stage Birmingham gaffe leaves Blackpool crowd baffled

Britney Spears’s on-stage Birmingham gaffe leaves Blackpool crowd baffled

Britney Spears came to Birmingham for a show at the Genting Arena, part of the NEC complex, on Friday, August 31. The singer brought her Piece Of Me tour to Brum before a show in Blackpool over the weekend. But despite giving a towering performance in the seaside town, her mind was clearly on Birmingham still. The show served as part of her UK tour, which had an “incredible demand”, according to promoters. Britney Spears performs in Taipei, Taiwan, in June 2017.

It followed Britney’s record-breaking, four-year headlining residency Britney: Piece of Me at The AXIS at Planet Hollywood Resort & Casino in Las Vegas.

The 36-year-old singer appeared to be a little confused on Saturday night, however, when she asked the Blackpool crowd: “How you feeling, Birmingham?” Fans soon clarified her mistake and she added: “I mean Blackpool!”

As the first contemporary superstar resident in the city, Britney revitalised the programme of entertainment in Vegas. With over 250 shows, the record-setting residency was sold out on a regular basis, generating over $140 million gross revenue and selling nearly a million tickets.